Last night, I talked about feeling that I was not living my own life and that I was lost in the caregiving role. Tonight, I want to explore the other side—his side. Lynn sits up at night to sleep so that he will not wake me up, and I put him on his peddler when […]
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Have you ever wondered whose life it is you are living? Sometimes, I wonder if I exist anymore. Some days it seems that I only exist to be Lynn’s assistant. I do not have a life of my own anymore. Sometimes I try to have one, but when I do, I just become frustrated with
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After paying the owner the sales price of the van on Nov. 18, we finally have tags and can drive it as of December 3. This entire experience has been one of frustration and endurance from the beginning but it’s over now, and we have the freedom provided by a wheelchair van. Today, after
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Every time Lynn goes through a spell of feeling bad, I wonder, “Is this MS or something else?” MS is so sneaky. It affects so many components of the body and mimics so many other things that it’s not always easy to tell. Like now. Something is wrong with Lynn. He associates it with when
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When I run into coworkers, friends, family, people from church, etc., I can see in their eyes that they feel sorry for me. So many say, “I don’t know how you do it, day in and day out. I don’t think I could.” I don’t feel comfortable when someone tells me that. I don’t feel
Last year on this date, Lynn was in the intensive care unit of the VCU Health System/Medical College of Virginia Hospitals (MCV). By today’s date, he had been in the hospital since November 6 and would remain in the hospital for another two weeks. During that time, I stayed with him 24 hours a day.
Finally after two long weeks of going back and forth and back and forth with the loan agent, we got approved for the full van loan. As the person who sold us the van said, “I’ve bought houses in less time than it’s taking to get this loan approved!” If the seller and I had
Would you believe I still haven’t settled the loan for our van? I know God will provide, and this van will be ours, but it has been so very frustrating dealing with the loan company this week. Here’s the issue:The seller asks about $7000 more than the blue book value for a 2005 Uplander.
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I have often mentioned in my posts that God takes care of us and that our church is an ongoing support group for us. I want to share with you how I know prayers are answered. If you follow my blog, you know that several weeks ago, I wrote a blog about how much I
Over the past week, my concern has grown. I walk into the room and see him sitting there. His eyes are shaded in pain–not severe pain–more of an aching discomfort due to the broken skin on his coccyx. We’ve tried several patches to protect the area, but one slid and broke the skin. Then it
I received my annual performance review today. I had mentally prepared myself for getting a rating less than I usually get and was even afraid it might be significantly less, but I was pleased, disappointed, sad, and concerned. Not to brag, but I’m very good at my job. Several years ago, I was nominated for
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We made arrangements for our home health nurse to give Lynn the flu shot today. I expect he will feel pretty rough tomorrow and maybe Sunday, too, because anytime he gets a vaccine, a change in medications, or has to adjust to just about anything different, it knocks the wind out of him. I used
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