I’ve always disliked change. I like things to be predictable, and I like feeling in control. I want to know what I’m responsible for and be able to plan my immediate future with some degree of probability. I also like to finish jobs and cross them off my list. Change doesn’t come easy for me, […]
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Today is my Mom and Dad’s 59th wedding anniversary. When people comment about the sacrifice I’ve made to care for Lynn, I truly don’t understand why it seems so different. I practice now what I saw my parents demonstrate for each other and for us over and over again. Before I was born, my mom
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I keep thinking about how this is a topic none of us talk about, but everyone has to face it at some point, so I decided to write about it. Warning: It may seem insensitive to some, but in reality, it’s one of the elephants in the room we don’t talk about. If you are
Privacy? You've got to be kidding….. Read More »
Lynn saw the hematologist this week to find out why his hemoglobin goes up and down. When we got the lab work back, his hemoglobin had dropped one point, which wasn’t that bad, actually. So then, why does he get so cold so often? The good news is that the doctor ruled out anything like
Not anemia? Guess it's MS… Read More »
Sometimes, I catch people looking at me in sympathy, and you can read in their eyes that the path I have chosen is too much of a sacrifice, but what they don’t seem to understand is that I did, in fact, choose this life. No, I did not go out and look for someone who
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Just when you think things are getting better, they start rolling downhill again… Lynn’s dietician put him on a special MS diet to improve the absorption of nutrients and, more importantly, iron since he struggles with iron deficiency. He has to eat three cups of green leafy vegetables per day, three cups of vegetables high
What a roller coaster! Read More »
I have so much going through my mind today that I find my emotions on the surface for no real reason other than overload. We’re having friends over for dinner tonight. They are bringing the meat and I’m doing the vegetables. This is a couple we really enjoy being with and can be ourselves with
It seems like I’m always complaining, so I want to take a minute to say what a good day we had on Sunday. The weather was nice, and Lynn was feeling pretty good for the third day in a row (that in itself made it a good day). A former co-worker of Lynn’s was coming
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I picked up a magazine while waiting for Lynn to have an MRI last week and read an article entitled, “What happens if the caregiver gets sick?” It caught my eye because I’ve allowed that question to surface just on the edge of my consciousness several times, but each time it comes, I rationalize that
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So far, 2012 has not been significantly better than 2011. Yeah, I know it’s only January 3, but honestly, I’m not looking for much improvement over the days ahead.Looking back over 2011, I must say it was not a great year. Lynn started the year barely functional after having gotten out of the hospital after
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It’s 12:12 a.m. on Christmas Eve. In a few hours, I’ll be back up getting ready for my kids to come over for our Christmas Eve time together. I love having them come over, but as with all things, MS gets in the way, it seems. I had a call from my son earlier saying he
This past weekend, my parents and siblings, as well as our children and theirs, came to our house to celebrate Christmas. It was a wonderful time: lots of laughing and sharing, as well as good food. We rarely get to see most of them since Lynn has become wheelchair-dependent, so these times together are especially