It seems like I’m always complaining, so I want to take a minute to say what a good day we had on Sunday. The weather was nice, and Lynn was feeling pretty good for the third day in a row (that in itself made it a good day). A former co-worker of Lynn’s was coming […]
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I picked up a magazine while waiting for Lynn to have an MRI last week and read an article entitled, “What happens if the caregiver gets sick?” It caught my eye because I’ve allowed that question to surface just on the edge of my consciousness several times, but each time it comes, I rationalize that
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So far, 2012 has not been significantly better than 2011. Yeah, I know it’s only January 3, but honestly, I’m not looking for much improvement over the days ahead.Looking back over 2011, I must say it was not a great year. Lynn started the year barely functional after having gotten out of the hospital after
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It’s 12:12 a.m. on Christmas Eve. In a few hours, I’ll be back up getting ready for my kids to come over for our Christmas Eve time together. I love having them come over, but as with all things, MS gets in the way, it seems. I had a call from my son earlier saying he
This past weekend, my parents and siblings, as well as our children and theirs, came to our house to celebrate Christmas. It was a wonderful time: lots of laughing and sharing, as well as good food. We rarely get to see most of them since Lynn has become wheelchair-dependent, so these times together are especially
My Mom and Dad arrived today in anticipation of our family get together at our house on Saturday with my family and my brothers and their families. Everyone comes to our house now because Lynn’s powerchair and other equipment do not fit as well into a home that is not equipped for them. For years
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When Lynn went to the doctor last week, several blood tests were done to find out why he was feeling so tired and run down. We got the results yesterday and were surprised to find out that his hemoglobin was greatly improved (now 14), as were his other lab values. Mostly, everything was within
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Last night, I talked about feeling that I was not living my own life and that I was lost in the caregiving role. Tonight, I want to explore the other side—his side. Lynn sits up at night to sleep so that he will not wake me up, and I put him on his peddler when
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Have you ever wondered whose life it is you are living? Sometimes, I wonder if I exist anymore. Some days it seems that I only exist to be Lynn’s assistant. I do not have a life of my own anymore. Sometimes I try to have one, but when I do, I just become frustrated with
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After paying the owner the sales price of the van on Nov. 18, we finally have tags and can drive it as of December 3. This entire experience has been one of frustration and endurance from the beginning but it’s over now, and we have the freedom provided by a wheelchair van. Today, after
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Every time Lynn goes through a spell of feeling bad, I wonder, “Is this MS or something else?” MS is so sneaky. It affects so many components of the body and mimics so many other things that it’s not always easy to tell. Like now. Something is wrong with Lynn. He associates it with when
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When I run into coworkers, friends, family, people from church, etc., I can see in their eyes that they feel sorry for me. So many say, “I don’t know how you do it, day in and day out. I don’t think I could.” I don’t feel comfortable when someone tells me that. I don’t feel