I was so excited! I’ve been hoping to sell that land for years now, even though it did not have a “for sale” signposted. Was God sending me an answer to prayer? Would it be this easy that I could finally get that land paid off and maybe have enough left over to pay some bills as well? Even if there weren’t money left over, it would mean being able to pay off the $43,000 loan on that land! We would lose a lot of money, no doubt, because we had a lot of money invested in the land. We had paid to have approval for a pond to be built (which never was); Lynn had spent two years putting in a cinder block full basement and foundation for the planned timber-frame house; we had the timbers already cut for the tongue and groove frame sitting in a storage container on the land. All of that would certainly be lost in any deal because it was needed for our house and probably would not interest anyone else. However, I was willing to let that go because the reality is….I don’t want to move there anymore.
We bought that land in the early 2000s before Lynn was diagnosed with MS and while our children were still in high school. Since Lynn was a carpenter, he wanted to build a house that was “ours” and not live in the one I had built with my first husband. So he drafted plans for a timber-frame house that was beautiful. We found the perfect land that would support a full basement (where the children’s rooms would be) with the main floor two stories high with an open ceiling and a loft on each side of the second story with nothing but windows in the back. In addition, there is a full wrap-around porch, a stone fireplace, and an attached two-car garage on six acres of land with access to a pond in the back. It was going to be gorgeous! Plus, if Lynn did get MS one day, the doors would be wide, and we were considering installing an elevator for access from the ground to the main floor.
Lynn started to work on it…slowly. He was doing it all himself. First, he waited on the Corp of Engineers to approve the pond installation. Hurricane Katrina caused a two-three year delay waiting on the pond. We finally stopped waiting on that, and he started putting in the foundation. He laid the cinder block, alone for the most part, after work and on weekends. Then, five or six years into the project, he was diagnosed with MS. At first, it didn’t bother him, but gradually, he couldn’t work without a helper (me or one of the boys), and then he couldn’t do more than an hour at a time before he was too exhausted to keep going.
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